How does my future transportation affect this moment?
On Monday, Nathan and I are embarking on a road trip. A month of van riding and music listening, hiking and the building up and breaking down of my parents' old purple tent, eating trail mix and tuna fish and canned soup and seeing the ocean.
Future transportation. Sitting in the passenger seat. Mostly. Because I love sitting next to Nathan while he does something as simple as driving on the highway. He's just so good at it. One of my mom's friends said this trip will either "make or break" my relationship with Nathan, a comment I've heard more than once, and I wonder what exactly that means. Talitha said today, as she transported me via her white Toyota to my grandma's house, that the trip can't "make" Nathan and my relationship, because the relationship is already sort of made, and furthermore, does surviving this trip with Nathan mean that the relationship can't break after just because we lasted a month sleeping on hard ground together? The answer to that, as unsettling and honest as it is, is of course no.
But yes, this month of transportation could definitely break us.
And there's not much to be said of that. Going on a trip as intense as this could be asking for a break up, but here's the thing: I still went to Israel even though there are constant car bombs, I still went to Spain even though I could have gotten mugged, I still went to New York even though I could have gotten lonely. And there were bombs in Israel, I was robbed in Spain, and I got lonely as hell at times in New York.
So, you go. You go on the trip, take the risk, hope you're a better person because of it. Hope you come out stronger.
I'm so ready to move on, out, around. So ready to travel, I can barely stand it. My heels are itching. And this is the first time I've traveled with anyone. I mean, as an adult, a full human being, this is the first time. And I don't think I could have chosen a better partner for it.
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I hope it MAKES you HAPPY.
I miss you already.
from the way it sounds, i think your trip is going to be so enjoyable. i can totally relate, thinking of the times i've driven long winding distances with andrew. i smile, because usually i sit in the passenger seat for similar reasons that i hadn't put words to. i'm telling you, your time in and around the bay area will definitely "make" your time with nathan. there are so many special places and even beyond the bay area-- the country, the land is so much more beautiful than i could have ever imagined. bon voyage, man.
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